Just take it as an experience...

Finally after somedays, I get to feel better...
So far still having some fever plus a little bit of headache...
But it's okay... It will be healed someday...

No matter how I wished and hoped he will be staying, and yet he still leave me...
But it's okay... I'll let go... Coz I know everybody has their own freedom...

People keep asking me why is our relationship is so short... I didn't talk much...
But it's okay... Coz I don't want people to talk bad about him...

Although i'm really really sad about his leave... I even asked myself: Am I too desperate or what??
But it's okay... Coz the reasons he gave me why does he wants to leave satisfied me... I told myself that I mustn't be that selfish...

I know you'll put me down and everythng we've been through...
But it's okay... I'll still love you always as long as you're still in my heart...



Meow, I'm happy to see you had grown up more... I miss you... =)

Wait For You - Elliot Yamin (Female Version by Kyla)

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Boy you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Boy I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, you're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just,
just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it won't be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting...

I'm suffering from your disappear...

I've been crying for the 6th time this week because of him...

I dunno what happened to him... He changed a lot...
He didn't reply my message... He didn't pick up his phone when I called him...
He's juz like being so cool to me... But he still treat me as good as usual last week... I really don't understand...

Why is he doing this to me?? I tried to apologize... But he juz said: " Kk... Go study la.. Later mom scold. "

That was the last message I recieved from him.

I'm so upset... Some of my friends adviced me to let go... It's just a puppy love... Or maybe he's kind of playboy...

But I just don't wanna believe what they said... Because I trusted him... I always hope that he's still with me... I dun mind if he didn't chat with me everyday, but at least contact me once in awhile... As long as I'm still in his heart...

I really hope that everything could be back to normal... I miss those sweet memories... I want them back... I don't wanna suffer anymore... Please....



Dar, I miss you.

A Surprising Birthday Celebration

Today me and my friends went to time went to celebrate me and Sea Kun's coming birthday, which Sea Kun's is on 28th Nov and mine is 30th. The 1st thing we do when reached timesquare is buy movie tickets. We watched " The Twilight Saga - New Moon", and it's SUPER NICE!!!! YOU MUST WATCH IT!!! Especially girls who likes hot guys... XD

Guess what??? Even the whole night I was thinking who is better... I like hot guys but I think I like more to vampires compare to wolves... lol... I think I've fall in love with them.... OMG....!!! @.@

We went to Gasoline to have a meal after the movie. But who knows.... The guys brought out a Secret Receipe cake!!! ( which I don't even know since when they put it under the table ) And I regreted for food which made me really full after having a piece of cake.

This is the cake. =)

The cake looked ruined after I cut it... lol... It's because it started to melt. Thanks to them for a surprising bitrhday celebration! This was my first birthday celebration with so many friends together ever. Thanks a lot!! =D

My Mom's 43th Birthday~

Mom, I love you &...

Happy Birthday!!!! =D

p.s. : This american chocolate cake is super delicious... ^^ But it's quite hard...

WTF??!!

look at this car's number...

I was shocked when I saw this car... & keep asking my mom to catch up this car for me to take photo... LOL~ (abit kua jiong~) but actually it's normal la... car number oni ma...

My sis keep asking me why do I wanna take this photo... even till now... lol...

She's still so young and innocent... Never mind la... you'll know some day... I bet it will be very soon... Trust me~ XD

p.s. : I'm not "kurang ajar" but just feel curious that this word will be used up for a car... I'm sorry if you guys feel bad... ok? =)

《走出自己的未来》

今天下午从补习回来，看见妹妹在房间睡午觉，还没醒。放下书包，走进房间，懒懒的也像睡一下... 然而，无意中看见书桌上的一本书---《走出自己的未来》。

这本书，是由李志祥编著的生涯规划实战手册。它曾入围本地一家报章的“好书投选”活动，也曾荣获星洲日报《学海》13179 好书奖，更曾被选为“国内外十大青少年好书”，中选的本地作品只有两部，它就是其中之一。

几个月前，学校主办了书展，看到它，我就把它买下了，因为我觉得这本书很有意义。只是这几个月来都很忙，买了却没时间翻开它。今天无意中看见它，突然很想看看，所以就趴在床上翻了起来。

读着读着，突然间想起我与Cheng Han 之前的谈话。我们谈到童军的事。我对他说，Pn. Hazira 忙到连童军的事也被逼丢在一旁，我们的 lencana usaha 和 maju 就这样半天吊。我不甘心，好想叫老师快点帮我们完成它们，以便我们还来得及考上皇家童军。

谁知道，Cheng Han 竟然说我贪心。

但我觉得，我这并不叫做贪心，而是意志。因为我想，如果我们已差不多完成一项自己有心要去做的事情，虽然是暂停了一阵子，哪怕慢别人好几拍，但仍然还有希望把它完成，为何不努力争取，要半途而废呢？

老实说，半途而废的人我见过不少。当然，连我自己在某方面也曾经有过这样的时候。可是近几年来，我开始觉得半途而废其实也真的蛮累人的，而且又浪费时间，不是吗？所以不知从何时起，我决定一定要完成每一个任务，除非我知道我是不会或不可能完成某些事情时，我就一定不会去做。

有许多事情，是需要我们放胆去尝试与参与；如果不尝试，我们怎么知道我们到底行或不行呢？

就像李志祥所写的：“我始终坚信，最好的未来，是自己想的，要的，用心去尝试的一个真正属于自己的未来！” 所以我相信，我的人生，由我自己整装，我能飞多远，我的天空就有多宽！

“生命究竟有没有意义，

并非我的责任；

但是怎样安排此生，

却是我的责任。”

-- 赤塞